SORRY GUYS !
I'VE MOVE HOUSE.
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but i wont delete this blog..dont worry.

planned made by Wan.
went picnic at West Cost Park.
i thought it will be a sucky day coz its started raining the moment i step out of the house.
when i reach there.MAN ! it was a great sunny day.
get sattle down.then ate our lunch there.
after lunch,take out our kites then SUNTAN!sweee bo.
while suntanning,one pakcik came to us and talk WORLD.
idk if its world or true but i find it C.O.C.K.
i thought flying kites will be a very boring thing but i was WRONG.
flying kites its like living our life.
before i even try to make them fly high,i don't even think that i could even fly them at all.
but i work hard n it take ALOT of patience to make them fly high.
same goes to life,in some point of time,we'll think that we'll never gonna make it because we are scared as we don't know what will come our way.it took alot of courage,patience,believes n hard work to get to the place where we want it to be.
In flying kites it does not matter who can fly them high first,what matter the most is how you fly them high.same goes to life,it doesn't matter who reach the goal first,what matter the most is how are you going to reach there.

went home around 8+.
once reach home,VERY TIRED.
but i had a great day today.thanks to the Kites Flying Kaki Team.

till here

its like that.never been easy.
but I'll not gonna quit.
not even when one day, the truth tried to knock me down.

Sunday was bored.
very bored.
feel like going to the gym but i cant.abg sedare comming over to lepak.so yeah.
he came n chat.advice me with some stuff.thanks dude.oh and he promise to fix my PSP.which ofcorse he will coz he took it away for service.

I'm not having a good time at this period of time but I've tried to cheer myself up with many different ways.like what I've just did.i watched two back to back movie at home.

the first movie i watched was THE BACK UP PLAN.its a sweet ending story.seriously.
its funny too and thanks to that i keep laughing through out the entire movie.well,not entirely but some the part that is funny.you guys should watch it if haven't.

then the second one was DEAR JOHN.i swear i nearly cried watching this movie.not because I'm a cry baby but some of the story line touched me.it gave me that 'smack in the face' expression.
here's what happened in the movie,I'm just gonna summaries some part of it..
john is a soldier.during his time off for 2 weeks,he met Savannah.they both fall in love so randomly n so fast with in that 2 weeks.and they finally come to point where john have to do his duty to serve his country.while Savannah had to go back to school.they trust each other so decide to do the long distance relationship.Savannah ask john to write her a latter n told her everything n whats going on in his army world while she also have to do the same thing to john.
then suddenly,john didn't receive any latter from Savannah.john got worried.he tried to call illegally using his company phone but Savannah just wont pick up his calls.then when the day where john finally receive a latter from her,it broke his heart into a million peaces.Savannah is married to other guy.

its a long story from where I've stop there.all i can say is that this movie didn't end with an happy ending nor a sad one,in fact it ended with a hanging story line.this movie explains what is sacrifices is all about and it thought of how to accept a person with their imperfectness.you should watch this.

till here

was wondering how do my face look like if i didnt sleep or slept for less than 1hour for the whole night,and that is how it look like.first glance i thought im dead cz its seriously pale.
dont feel like staying at home,so i decide to wonder around without not knowing where to go..fortunately,wan redzwan got the time to acompany me.thanks wan.
didnt wish to talk anything abt it to wan.sorry eh wan.let me just face this on my own.

is it wrong to love you ?
i dare to love you because i want to.along the way i know for sure there will be ups n downs.coz that's how love can grow stronger.
i really wish you could hear me coz I've got lots of words to say tp you
and you want to know something,
what hurts the most is when you didn't even wish to tell me the truth and what worst than that is when you ask me to leave.
i am ready to know what ever truth that you think and find it cruel.i've said before, when i was brushing your hair and when you asked " how should i cut my hair ?",and i said "potong mcm mane pun tetap sayang".well now let me tell you this,what ever the truth that hurt will be,i'm ready to accept it.cause i understand everybody make mistake.
you're not guilty in my eyes,love.as long as you willing to tell me whats going on.
if time is what you need for you to have the courage to tell it to me,then so be it.
remember the day when i confessed everything,it took me sometime to say it.
now its your turn,im sure you'll be brave enough to admit your guiltiness.
all i need to know is the truth from you.
if you could accept me for who i am regardless of my ugly back ground,why can't i do the same thing
you don't know how much i miss and need you right now.

you know,the reason why i go to school is not because i only want to have good grades.the important part is that i understand the meaning of how to have good grades.
i know.i know.its kinda confusing.you probably wont understand of what am i saying.
let me put it this way.for example..
it take 2 hands to make a the sound of a clap.

basically thats how i feel.felt like i'm clapping on my own.
i dont know whats going on.you want it to stop but why?
i dont understand.am i some kind of a joke or something ?
you're avoiding me for sure and you are HIDING something from me FOR SURE.
why are you so afraid to tell me the truth ?
why would you think that is better for me to hate you rather than i know the truth ? whats so cruel about it ?
dont you even care to know that i've been missing you ?
where did i go wrong ?
why would you even have the thought of me hating you ?
and why would you want me to hate you ?

aaarrrrgghh ! i guess something that i fear most since before i left Singapore come true.
i was hoping that someone or anybody will wake me up and make me realise it's just a dream,a bad dreams,a nightmare.BUT i guess this is all real.
so this is how you wanna punish me after all the sins i've done in the past huh ? fair enough..i deserve these.i guess my sins is SO big until i'll have to face one after another.
oh and sometimes when im alone,im kinda asking the MAN up there,is it wrong to be nice ? but why does it suck ?
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.maybe im just a sucker for love.or maybe you found somebody else better than me.or maybe "GOD" cursed on me. hmmmm.i dont know.